I have been adhering to standards of online posting. My own standards. Adopted from ideals of others. I may post: to bring other's joy or perspective, personal record keeping. I may not post: to brag, to complain, to eliminate boredom...to name a few. Censorship has it downfalls, it has been more challenging to write.
Additionally, I have been avoiding my blog, mainly because my last entry was about how kindergarten wasn't emotional for me. That was after one week into the program, when I thought all was peachy. Things got emotional about three weeks in, after I found out my 3 year-old wasn't adjusting as I thought. Happy at home, not-so-happy at school. These lessons are for another day, because I don't want to write about them today, but I would feel misleading as to say everything was still hunky dory in the kindergarten department, when it is not. My initial reflections, although genuine, completely ignorant.
I did some digging. My Grade 12 English teacher wrote me a note. Tonight I thought of this note and I was determined to find it. Success.
It is the P.S. in the note which I wanted to reread. A lost sixteen year-old, who sometimes wore a cat collar as a necklace, was described as having excellence. Excellence that lingered. I needed to reread that tonight. Sometimes despite our success (occupational, relational, cerebral...whatever), the rote parts of the day-to-day and the curveballs life throws our way cloud our self-perspective. I worked late tonight and went to a Christmas party, feeling like I passed on the important (and rote) duties of wife and mother. I was reminded that I have excellence. Not am excellent, but possess an ability to be. Empowered to be excellent.
If a teacher can empower me 14 years later, then how much more can God empower me? Who does my Father say I am?
I am strengthened with His power for all endurance (Colossians 1:11)
I am forgiven. Debts cancelled. (Colossians 2:13-14)
I am God's chosen. Kind. Patient. Forgiving. (Colossians 3:12-13)
For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," has shone in out hearts to give the light of the knowledge or the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power [excellence] belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair. ~2 Corinthians 4:6-8
Who might I empower today by speaking blessing over them?
Am I letting His excellence continue to linger for me?